Is this my NEW normal?

Oct. 5, 2014
What have I done?  That was the question I asked myself last night as I rocked a screaming child for 30 minutes before he calmed down.  I awoke at 12:15am to Arouna's cries.  Since this is unusual for him, I immediately went to his room.  I first checked his diaper which was wet, but that's normal, but I changed it anyway.  He continued to scream.  I felt his head, he wasn't hot.  I talked to him, tried to comfort him, rocked him, bounced him, walked with him.  He continued for 30 minutes straight and then finally started to settled down.  As I sat and rocked for another 30 minutes, I sat thinking, "Is this my new normal?"  How can I do this?  And then it hit me again.....I can't.  I need God, every day, hour, minute, second.  I need him for energy throughout the day, for wisdom in knowing and making decisions about his medical needs, for encouragement when times are tough, for a servant attitude when I want to be selfish, etc.  I had just made the comment yesterday that if he sleeps all night, "I" can do this.  WRONG!!!  Whether he sleeps all night or wakes up 10 times, I can ONLY do this with God.